Broken, abused, rejected, abandoned, disabled, ill, and alone...
When one looks at me and my life they may not see much worth looking at. I know I was struggling to see anything good earlier. It
didn't help that there were some events and a couple of people that added to the bleak grimness today. So I dressed my kids, got in my van, and took a drive.
Nothing good was playing on the radio at the moment on the one station I could get in on my old beat up radio, so I turned it off and just started singing to myself. Quietly at first, then eventually load enough my kids could hear. Worship songs and old hymns mainly. Trying to remind myself I am not truly alone even though it may feel like it right now. I didn't really feel like I was truly singing to God, but I prayed God would understand it to be the best I could offer at the moment and offer me some comfort and a bit of peace.
Later on, while at Wal-mart after having run an errand I needed to get done, my kids and I were just browsing around and I came across a small batch of whimsical signs that caught my eye. I stopped to read them and most of them talked about family and friends and all the parts of life I painfully wish I could claim right now so I started to just walk away. Then I saw one that wasn't as flashy and almost got lost amongst the clutter. I'm glad I saw it as it carried a great reminder and a much needed dose of encouragement.
"When you have faith you have hope and when you have hope you have everything."
Couldn't have read that at a better time. I never stop to be amazed at how lovingly attentive God is to His children. Especially to the ones that seemingly slip through the cracks so often and are deemed worthless by the world's standards.
Thank-you Jesus that I will always be worth more than I could ever imagine because I am Yours! (((hugs))) I am, and always will be, priceless in Your eyes no matter how others may see me or my worth.
And thank-you also for your second precious gift tonight. A man named Chester whom I will always believe to be one of your angels in disguise. Two outcasts by society's standards, finding friendship and acceptance with each other in the humble setting of a local Mc Donald's. :) Father, Your ways never cease to amaze me. Thank-You so much. ((hugs))